Cinema Magic

Pauline Kael, an American film critic, once said:

" A good movie can take you out of your dull funk and the hopelessness that so often goes with slipping into a theatre; a good movie can make you feel alive again, in contact, not just lost in another city. Good movies make you care, make you believe in possibilities again. If somewhere in the Hollywood-entertainment world someone has managed to break through with something that speaks to you, then it isn't all corruption. The movie doesn't have to be great; it can be stupid and empty and you can still have the joy of a good performance, or the joy in just a good line. An actor’s scowl, a small subversive gesture, a dirty remark that someone tosses off with a mock-innocent face, and the world makes a little bit of sense..."

The butterflies of anticipation, the giddy impatience, and the kool aid smile of excitement. That is what I experience before the start of every movie. Seeing the opening credits and hearing the opening music, stills my body. I forget to exist.For ninety minutes or so, I'm lost. I'm lost inside the cinema magic. Nothing else matters to me, but what's on that screen.Watching movies is an escape for me. The lights go dark and so do your worries. For a couple hours, you're inside the movie and following the plot, while never once thinking about the stress that waits for you after the credits roll. I can get lost inside the world the movie creates for me. My mind shuts off from the millions of thoughts that plague me daily. I can live a thousand lives within movies. I've been everywhere, real and/or imaginary. I've lived inside the movie, pretending I'm my favorite character, as they go on their journey to win the battle, survive their adventure, or get the guy. Watching different movies takes your mind to places you've only dreamed of. That's where the true magic exists.In movies, I know that love can be flawless, and  the geeky girl can get the super hot popular boy to fall in love with her. In movies, other worlds are real, and fairy tales are brought to life. You can't fail. You only face some sort of minor setback or obstacle, but not to worry, that's only the climax. There's always a trick up the sleeve, a plot twist, or secret plan. Everything makes sense. Every gesture, every line, and every action has a purpose. That's what makes movies so great. It shows you a perfect world, where there aren't any unknowns like there are in life. It's my escape from the unknown, my proverbial safety blanket. Movies are my safe place. I will forever love movies. 

-Jaxx

Let Your Freak Flag Fly

There are billions of people on this earth. All of us are different. Tall, short, fat, thin, black, white, brown, purple, green, etc etc. You'd think that after years of fighting prejudices in every culture, we would have learned to accept people for who they are. I was raised to judge people for their actions, not the person they are. Some people are still stuck in their prejudicial ways, and it continues to baffle me.

This past weekend I was getting pictures taken with my boyfriend, when an elderly woman stopped and said "You're a beautiful woman, and I'm not a gay". "Not a gay". Wow. My first thought after I recovered from my shock of her statement was, "Who cares?". Who cares if she was gay? Who am I to judge her? I'm not God, Allah, Jesus, Buddha, or any other being of higher power. I am not a perfect person, so I have no right whatsoever to judge others for their preferences. No one on this earth does. It's 2013, and I continuously have to hear from my friends in the LGBT community about the harsh names they are called like freak, faggot, broken. That's not even half of them. So, because they like the same sex, they are considered a freak? Wrong. Their orientation does not define them. Their character, their morals, their ethics, is what defines them. Not the fact that Billy likes the P instead of the V. 

I've lost a friend to suicide, due to the ridicule and the bullying because he was gay. The bully's missed out seeing how great of a person Tyler was. He had a glowing personality. You couldn't help but smile and feel great when you were around him.  He loved to sing and play soccer, but the guys who taunted him everyday after school for being a "fag", didn't see that. Tyler was the type of person that never complained because he didn't like "bothering" people with his problems. He'd much rather make us smile. He kept his pain to himself. He hid away the tears, the self hatred, and the fear. All because he was something that he couldn't change. He couldn't change the fact that he was gay, no more than I could change the fact that I'm black. We are, who we are. His parents lost a son, his younger brother lost his big brother and role model, I lost a friend. 

To anyone who feels alone because you are tall, short, fat, thin, black, white, brown, purple, green, gay, or transgender, etc, don't feel like you don't have the right to live or be here on this earth. You have as much right to be happy as anyone else.Don't give anyone the power to break your self esteem. You may be gay, but you are not a "fag". You may stand out and be different, but that's ok. Dare to be different. Dare to stand out and let your freak flag fly. Be who you are. Love who you are. You are a powerful and strong individual. Live, love,and laugh without a care in the world, because you know who you are and love it. 

-Jaxx

The Journey To Whatever This Is

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I think I've spent about 4 hours dancing around what exactly how I wanted to start. Introductions are lame and lets face it, who really wants to read my life story? No one, that's who. Unless I have my name in lights, I'm pretty sure that my bio isn't going to make the best sellers list. However, I do have things I think about, and often wonder if I'm the only one. So this blog isn't mostly about me. It's about expressing my thoughts about every day life and wondering if anyone else feels the same ......Now with that said, lets jump into this adventure feet first. 

-Jaxx